Dragonball FTW!!!!

There used to be this,


And then the anime came along.. ,



Later the whole world went haywire with the gravity defying hair style cosplay,



After almost a decade some idiot decides this awesome anime needs a movie remake,



From the trailers i watched from youtube, there's only one thing i can say. It is absolutely stupid and dragonball deserves a better movie than that. I just hope at least the japanese producers would make a cg movie instead, just like final fantasy. I'll still go and watch the movie just to satisfy my curiosity. The forums on 2-chan are already having big LOL's about the movie.

p/s: will write about 2008 later, too many things i forgot.

Thoughts....

Alas, i decided... I need to fill this hole in my heart. A place i kept empty for a very long time, since GOD took a precious part of me. Took back what was HIS, back to HIS side. I could never forget, not a even a bit of me want to forget. Something so very beautiful between me and her. If not for that tragedy, we would already be married last year. Beautiful wedding as she planned, simple yet meaningful. Celebrated among family and friends, on a beautiful day by the beach.

We've never told anyone about our plans, it's ours for the keeping. Now it all remains only a dream for me. How i wish time could be turned back, so i'll be able to get back to her. But GOD is almighty, it is all in his hands. All i could do is only give my prayers to her, remembering her.

After that long time i realized that i need to move on, look for another chance for another relationship. Start sharing again, share all my thoughts of happyness and sadness together with someone else. When i saw my nephew's daughters face, i felt as if i'm falling back. That sweet little innocent beautiful face somehow thought me that i need to go on with my life. Yes i'm somewhat already a grandfather, and i'm not old enough to have one.

Heck, my mum's always bothers me about marriage. She even planned to pair me up with her friend's daughter. I't not that i don't want to, but sometimes i wonder if i'll able to love, to have any feeling for someone else after a very long time. She was my first love after all, the one only who took me as i am.

I'LL TRY MY BEST AND HOPE I COULD FIND THAT OTHER PERSON TO CHERISH.

Sigh...

After the longest time, finally got to see you again. Didn't expect to see you though, and the truth is i'm glad to see you again. You must think i'm still the same selfish me that you know in the past, well maybe i am or maybe i'm just to shy to admit that i too missed those old days when we were so close together.

I really wanted to say "Hey, how it's going. Everything's good?", or "How's life, how is work in the new environment". But nothing came out, nothing but thought's came out. I really wanted to talk to you, i really do. But for now, i'll just keep things as they were until i gather all the courage to talk to you again. Talk like buddies as we used to be......

p/s : i was never able to get mad at you, i never could...

Tranquility K.L

Around the place i live in.

Dataran Merdeka

This husband and wife has been performing for longest time since i can remember. They sat near the Puduraya bustop. I don't know their names even though i do hang out with them sometimes. The husband plays the guitar while the wife sings. Both of them are disable people, both are blind. I wonder if they just take care of themselves in this city, does anybody take care of them...

LRT Plaza Rakyat

This is Dyana, an old office mate of mine, met her yesterday for dinner at Masjed Jamek. Her favourite place for ikan bakar. She's now five month pregnant and it's going to be her first baby. Been a long time since i last hang out with her. Hope we can hang out together again some other times.

Here comes Ultraman!!!

How many of you guys out there grew with this show? Don't even lie saying you never watched the show!!! It's like the essential stuff when growing up, a classic that never fades. There's too many of them nowadays, and you've never got tired watching them. The ever Great Ultraman, great fighter and an even lousy fighter. How many towns in japan is destroyed just because this guy need to kill one monster. Here's some traditional malay idle's based on ultraman. I'm too lazy to translate it to english. Too bad if you couldn't understand it.

Pulau Hokkaido jauh ketengah

Gunung Fuji bercabang tiga

Hancur Raksaser dikandung tanah

Ultraman yg baik dikenang jua.

Dua tiga Raksaser berlari

Maner nak samer Raksaser Kero

Dua tiga Ultraman boleh kucari

Maner nak samer Ultraman Taro.

Kalau roboh Kota Narita

Papan di Tokyo Ultraman dirikan

Kalau sungguh itu keje Raksasa

Badan dan kepaler dier Ultraman 'fire'kan.

Kajang Ultraman kajang berlipat

Kajang Raksaser mengkuang layu

Kalau Ultraman Ace tak cukup kuat

Ultraman Neos datang membantu.

Buai laju-laju Sampai Pokok Sena

Apa dalam baju?

Lampu Ultraman nyaler.

Mengata dulang paku serpih

Mengata Raksaser

Ultraman pulak yang lebih-lebih.

Sudah gaharu cendana pula

Sudahlah kalah di'fire' pula.

Orang berbudi kiter berbahaser

'Fire' diberi pada raksaser.

It's my diary, it's my past, my story, me feelings, my pain, my pleasure, my world, my love, my hatred, my desire, my everything. It's just too much to bare, too much too keep, too many emotions and i had to let it go. I should start anew, new beginning, new thoughts, everything.....

It's not something i would like to share, not something to discuss with, not something for others to ponder about. It just hurts more just to know someone else suddenly knows how i felt, somethings that i kept inside me for a long time, things that are sacred to me.....

Still, thanks for your concern of returning it back. For your interest in a nobody, a stranger. Hope you can help me release myself from those binds that i once thrown away. Burn it away, burn it all, may it fade with the ashes. All those things, may it be free released by the fire burning it.

p/s: to the person who found it, may all you read remains only to yourself.....

Untitled III

Guess being close to someone for a long time isn't good enough to be trusted. Even after all that you've done, including some mishaps. I must be a fool just to let those be some reason to get too emotional. Am i really hard to be trusted, maybe.... maybe of what i used to be. I tried to change, i needed to change just to get to someone's heart. I'm not what i used to be three years ago.

Why i cared so much, why i cared too much? Something about a person just attracts me, makes me wants to be a better person i am today. Seems not good enough though, not enough even to have some trust put in me. Still it's hard for me to just let go, no matter what i do.... I cried, wondered, worried if that someone would be fine with who i am. No regrets at all, no matter what is said and thrown at me.....

Why? Do i still care? never a moment could i forget that person, such a smile and grace. but i'm too proud to just let it past..... should i just say it, say that i still care and misses the thoughts of being together. Afraid, i'm afraid she'll turns to someone else other than me....

Please give me some time to think and clear all these thought and make my mind straight again, i beg of you. Please let me still care no matter how arrogant you might be, even if there is always another person for you out there. Some thing is better kept than said. if i do say it i might lose it, the things i cherished all these years.

So i beg of you, please give me some time. Consider your pain as mine and mine is yours. As always, as it used to be..... PLEASE UNDERSTAND.....

Not so "Happy New Year"

Might be a bit late, but still "HAPPY NEW YEAR". Been too distrought lately to write anything, can't think of anything. Anyways, how is new year up to now? Enjoyed it? anything happened?. I've hated mine already. Shit!!! felt mad, frustrated, disappointed.There's an old saying that goes "Good things will eventually comes to an end". It did actually happened, and it sticks through my mind that i can't sleep at night. It suck!!!! Already three days in the new year, a lot of things happened. Thanks to my Uber Smart Ass Boss, torn my office upside down. Some of those whose really close to me left the company for good, left with really hard feelings. Kinda sad when you see them grew along with this once so small dept of mine. This relationship we have is like siblings, more than just mere fellow co-workers. I cared so much for them, some are like little sisters to me. Hope what you do out there is way better than here. Wish all the good comes to the best and the bad doesn't goes worse to you.

Things just really moved on, some do bad and some do good to you. It's up to you to decide for yourself. Sometimes you just got to let things happen and see the consequences. I just hope things that happens after this might be better. I just hope these relationships that i have with all the people around me never ceases.

Happy Anniversary!!!

Yesterday marked a year for my cousin's marriage. Sorry for the late wish, since i forgot the date. My cousin and his wife now lives in Australia (damn jealous la) since their marriage last year. Still waiting for a nephew though from you guys, 1 year not enough to make babies? What ever may come, i hope they will be happy together for the rest of their lives.

My Song, Her Song, Our Song.... Moon On The Water.

This song is originally performed by a Japanese band, Beat Crusaders. Later featured in the anime Beck, sang by another japanese artist named Sowelu. I dunno why me & my late missus liked it, maybe the lyrics is somewhat related to us. Reminds me of times when were together back then...

Beat Crusaders : Moon On The Water

Full moon sways, gently in the night of one fine day,
On my way looking for a moment with my dear,

Full moon waves, slowly on the surface of the lake,
You were there, smiling in my arms for all these years,

What a fool, i don't know bout tomorrow,
What's it's like to be,
I was fool, couldn't let myself to go,
Even though i feel the end....

Old love affair, floating like a bird resting her wings,
You were there, smiling in my arms for all these years....