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Don't you care for her? Of course I do, she'a a number one priority. I'd care for her so much more than i care for myself. I'd care for her so much that it hurts.

It hurts not being able to see her, it hurts not being able to know whats she's doing, it hurts when she turns to someone else and not me.... or is it just me being a selfish.

What's with this feeling anyway, an obsession?It's something that should be said to the one, but couldn't find the courage to do so. Might as well let time takes it's toll on me.

Life does go on even for an otaku like me. Might as well try to keep things off from my mind from this time being. Watch an anime, fix some gunpla's, read some manga or doujin or just play games. Just to forget about that someone. Why can't it be easy like in the movies.......

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I did something stupid today, really stupid. Just because i can't confess doesn't mean i have the right to be mad at that certain someone. I'm dazed, confused by this feeling i have inside of me. I screw up my morning and be mad at someone i care the most. Hope she has the heart to forgive me, for being such a jerk. This regret is killing me more than anything else i ever felt before....

Beck - Slip Out

I don't know since when I changed to such a cold-hearted guy
I have to warm this frozen, icy, lonely heart to thaw
I like being wrapped with warmness more than anything else for sure I'm gonna make my coming days to be filled with laughter and joy

I let myself down that I'm more cruel than I thought I would be
I'm just a loser who ends up by caring for my soul
I don't give my heart to no one cause I don't wanna waste my time
I tried to love this loneliness to slip out of this lonesome hole

Sorrow is what I hate but it's grown my sensations
Regrets taught me how to make any hard decisions
Peace is always by my side but I've never felt it once
Love is not the word only for the sweet romance
Well, I'm scared, scared, scared, scared to death
And I'm scared to keep on going on my way
Well, I'm scared, scared, scared, scared to death
And I'll tell myself I'm special till the end

Recalling my torn, broken, aching heart of these long days
And all the memories I wanted to forget for making leaps
Recalling, breaking, aching, crying, making sure to me
And I take all and grin at my future on the way

Not so "Happy New Year"

Might be a bit late, but still "HAPPY NEW YEAR". Been too distrought lately to write anything, can't think of anything. Anyways, how is new year up to now? Enjoyed it? anything happened?. I've hated mine already. Shit!!! felt mad, frustrated, disappointed.There's an old saying that goes "Good things will eventually comes to an end". It did actually happened, and it sticks through my mind that i can't sleep at night. It suck!!!! Already three days in the new year, a lot of things happened. Thanks to my Uber Smart Ass Boss, torn my office upside down. Some of those whose really close to me left the company for good, left with really hard feelings. Kinda sad when you see them grew along with this once so small dept of mine. This relationship we have is like siblings, more than just mere fellow co-workers. I cared so much for them, some are like little sisters to me. Hope what you do out there is way better than here. Wish all the good comes to the best and the bad doesn't goes worse to you.

Things just really moved on, some do bad and some do good to you. It's up to you to decide for yourself. Sometimes you just got to let things happen and see the consequences. I just hope things that happens after this might be better. I just hope these relationships that i have with all the people around me never ceases.

Wait, Wait and Wait....

First of all, i would like to say sorry for the long non posting week. There's not much or not interesting things to mention last week. Other than going to the movie with this gorgeous chick. What the hell, i watched Enchanted instead of Narnia. It's a promise i got to keep anyway. Quite nice family movie to watch.

In my recent post, i've posted an image of my next gunpla. Last saturday went to the toyshop to put an order for the Unicorn Gundam. Costed me about RM160 after first order discount. First production of 77,777 units have been sold out in Japan. It'll took about another month or two to get mine. New images from official websites really looks awesome! Can't wait to get my hands on it.