Thoughts....

Alas, i decided... I need to fill this hole in my heart. A place i kept empty for a very long time, since GOD took a precious part of me. Took back what was HIS, back to HIS side. I could never forget, not a even a bit of me want to forget. Something so very beautiful between me and her. If not for that tragedy, we would already be married last year. Beautiful wedding as she planned, simple yet meaningful. Celebrated among family and friends, on a beautiful day by the beach.

We've never told anyone about our plans, it's ours for the keeping. Now it all remains only a dream for me. How i wish time could be turned back, so i'll be able to get back to her. But GOD is almighty, it is all in his hands. All i could do is only give my prayers to her, remembering her.

After that long time i realized that i need to move on, look for another chance for another relationship. Start sharing again, share all my thoughts of happyness and sadness together with someone else. When i saw my nephew's daughters face, i felt as if i'm falling back. That sweet little innocent beautiful face somehow thought me that i need to go on with my life. Yes i'm somewhat already a grandfather, and i'm not old enough to have one.

Heck, my mum's always bothers me about marriage. She even planned to pair me up with her friend's daughter. I't not that i don't want to, but sometimes i wonder if i'll able to love, to have any feeling for someone else after a very long time. She was my first love after all, the one only who took me as i am.

I'LL TRY MY BEST AND HOPE I COULD FIND THAT OTHER PERSON TO CHERISH.